Weight has always been a constant struggle for me. Over the last year I began to creep up to my heaviest weight again. Only 10 lbs shy of when I delivered Ava. 144 roughly is what I stayed at this summer. I started working a little over a month ago. I'm happy to be out of the house for a little bit. I'm stressed about learning a new job and even more terrified of messing up on the job. I hardly eat. I went from constantly grazing, having lunch out with friends to noodles with cheese at lunch, sometimes a quick dinner (if I remember). No ice cream. Not as much soda. I've dropped down to 137 lbs. My first goal is 136 by January 1, 2013 My second goal is 130 by February 20, 2013 My third goal is 125 by April 6, 2013 My fourth and final goal is 118 by June 15, 2013 118 lbs is what I weighed just before getting pregnant with Ava. I was happiest at this weight and I could button all my clothes! I want to be in shape to keep up with Ava. Sometimes I'm so tired I just sit. I don't like doing that. I want to do projects with her after school and go out and play. I just get so tired and drained. I hope to get my energy back and my spunk for life back. I also joined a gym at work so I'm hoping that helps out once I get in a routine. I need to start training again for all the 5k's coming up in the spring, summer and fall.